Raining,
The road was paved in grey.
Her hand in mine startles me every time
since it fits so well
In my own.
Grooves meet my scars in
Silent affirmation of
What our walk across the cobbled lane
Provides in earnest every day.
We look overhead
To see a plane
Scratching chalk across the sky while
A leaf drops plaintively with satisfaction
Not too far behind.
Some oft-recovered memory
harkens back to that evening,
where the moon was down
and sky glittered as brightly
as the sea.
It was cold
and I handed you my jacket
to wrap around your shoulders
in your quiet misery,
as you later relayed
that you waited for a sparkle in my eyes.
Oblivious,
I questioned your silence
with a sly reply;
my reward,
a slight smile burned
into in my mind.
The vivid flame
left ruddy embers
awake with longing,
Our paths were crossed
by destiny Herself.
We brooked no disobedience.
Yet consistency breeds complacency;
we thus split
from the weathered route.
A breath of fire
wafts winds of change;
They'll say it's all about perspective
as they prowl the streets in their Jaguars
with their Teflon wives reflecting high-beams
of the limo in their rear view mirrors,
vomiting both food and condescension while
they cluck at the Gucci-less bourgeois.
I'd say it's all about perspective
slaving at the corporate grindstone
and stating that "surviving's akin to being barely alive"
as I'm sitting pretty in my Bimmer and complaining
about rush hour traffic, or sipping Dewar's, driving
drunk and sleeping like a baby at night.
But who will say "have perspective"
when you're just trying to make ends meet
and your boyfriend dies in a car
"the sea that separates the saint from sinner needs no introduction. all you need to do is walk on water."
along the lines of
"our beloved son"
that we etched upon your tombstone,
she and i sat around the fire,
reminiscing about our would-have-beens.
inebriating all our should-have-beens.
that you knew more about
the things we didn't know, or care to find
inside your dressers and your mind;
your carefully constructed fantasy,
a fallen bastion to our righteous army.
yet we wrung our hands,
raging against our own crumbling foundations.
too late,
we discovered that
happiness flutters
like a tattered sock in a
tornado, wh
It took me three days to gather up the courage
to pick up the phone and dial the number
written on that unassuming little paper napkin,
folded and worried. Over and over.
It fell to pieces on the floor.
No matter - those seven numbers
were burned into a barcode on my brain.
With a tentative "Hello?"
I made it to "May I please speak to ... " but
the pressure pipes soon exploded in my head.
"Anyone there?"
I fell to pieces on the floor.
she hit the dusty ground with a cry.
scraped knees and a sting in her eye
the least of her concerns.
judges, standing by, recite the sentence
and quickly melt into the rabid mob.
she was innocent, they knew:
blind Justice isn't always right,
only blind (it makes it easier
to justify) and here the case
was steadfastly the latter.
her husband's debts
a tarnished crown for her brow:
unwise rocks held high,
the executioners milled listlessly
for the call (the bloodletting).
clutching sky, hoping her redemption
was in the form of quickness,
she writhed and wormed around
with her broken body.
the sun cast winged shadows overhead.
Ruminations on a grand piano by prevail, literature
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Ruminations on a grand piano
the texture of ebony skin
encapsulating ivory
reawakens emotions in me,
all that i have held
within.
dire sound mires passion
before one realizes the cost
of miseducation; quality lost
by blind teachers:
condescension.
fugue allegretto -
a brisk pace for a dirge
i sang before i submerged
and disappeared into
the darkest shoals.
the curve and arc
of incidence
contemplates its own existence
as it circ-umvents
the reality of its own impotence.
steps echo down halls, alone
with visions of Northern skies
and borderlines
clocks set to July with an exchange
at age twenty-two
we loved, once
when fingers flowed
electric
that channeled ardent luster
through our Jacob's ladder
as I disappear down
glass corridors
run, the way is lit
to taste the salt
of the only tears I cried
The spade kicks up another pile
Of memory laden clay, malformed and malcontent;
Product of our festering fission, fissure
Too wide to channel, too wide to cross over
In the damning years of yesterday's news.
Headlines speak from the heart,
Fire from the hip, because heartaches never
Follow high noon rules.
You packed revolvers, and pieces
Of me at peace, you passed to crows.
Driven stakes through bone,
Marrow, there I will lay in swallowed agony
Before your heel crushes my head.
Send me tumbling into the earth
So that I can slake my thirst for dirt.
Still alive, yet barely breathing
Mud around my crown reflects a Gorgon
Persp
In the span of sixteen minutes by prevail, literature
Literature
In the span of sixteen minutes
3:41AM.
Dreams are parking in the driveway of your mind;
Nestling in the crevices that unconsciousness squanders
While you stare content through your eyelids
Tucked in—nothing can reach you through
Your security blanket hem.
Tell me, what do I see?
Frazzled, turning towards the light,
I hear voices streaked with static
As the blinding white
Strikes pure (Mjolnir!) and bleaches me.
Take this towards the trembling tenor
As he weeps for love of her
Seated in this melancholy
The lone violin cries out, her tears
Lashing out against the fury of the silver roar.
Lavender champagne fizzles, bittersweet.
The taste of what lies beneat
The torrents slash the tapestry
To blind the eyes of Adam's seed.
The fall, the rise, the enterprise;
Tells tales of exodus reprised.
From eons past, his mind set free
First born, his eyes the first to see
Foreshadowed sun sets in decay
For tainted sight witnessed the day.
His mate, his wife and counterpart
Held loyal heart's deceiving start.
He followed her to mortal end,
His honor dashed, a curse to Man.
Our story ends, and life restarts.
Oh, one by one, the fear descends.
The meaning wrought, we gathered 'round,
Trees bursting from the light and sound.
Throes panic all those still awake!
And then, it passed! The storm aba
The sun forgot to break through today.
Its rays stopped, silenced by the clouds.
The orange ring, the lone symbol, resonates
In the sky that mirrors all my pain.
Days fall away between the spaces
Where I have to read in tears, the whispers.
Searching for meaning in an existence
Where the clues that bore into your mind
Only take you farther away from the truth.
Striding down the corridors of consciousness
To dig up forgotten memories, mnemonics,
Heuristics that I used to make it day to day.
People that I love, I hate, I miss with passion
That forces me to cry as lustily as I do.
Return me to the day when silence screams
Louder t
Secrets: your weakness
Glint in your eyes, a marker
For two betrayals.
Action paints your face
Flustered, signs of guilt plastered
All across these walls.
Stuff dynamite down
The laundry chute next to the
One foundation stone.
Fascinating fire
Igniting wood and stone with
Dire consequence.
Led with carrot strung
With copper. Course electric.
Shock. Resolution.
Sympathy a strength I share so others might believe.
A mighty oak standing against the wind,
Weak and alone Blocking gales for helpless saplings taking root.
I struggle for Grasp my hands outstretched when you tumble into the sea
Acceptance, Terrified, losing grip and forgetting how to swim.
Fearing that this Lean into a shoulder trained to weather through your storm.
Mask
Emotions erupt in a haze of confusion.
My hands, shaking mightily from anticipation,
Settle nervously in your denim-clad lap.
Who knew things would begin this way?
Curiosity couples intensity; this being the first foray
Down a road only lovers tread.
I've dreamt of this day for months,
But awake, I threw them out the window in disgust.
This tasteless taboo that deserved no elaboration.
I hold your hand. Your breath betrays a
Terrified wonder, reflecting the night off your face.
Absorbed by my entire being.
The final act, this kiss repaid a thousand-fold.
We stumble on our own accord, dazed by implication;
Full moon, our only wi
So many teeth are eyeing my disguise,
For further is the line that bars our closet minds.
Cry out! Southern melancholy reigns!
Shout out loud for the Baptist masses!
Devouring saints to ravage the region;
Gather the troops of deleterious legions.
Satiate the fractured vitriolic!
Is it time to sift the sand for gold again?
Metallic voices spit orange corrosion,
Dishonest traditions instigate erosion.
Abhor the abject waiting mouths miming,
\"Holy, holy, holy!\" to their basest idols.
Inconsequence, insofar as staying correlated?
Of consequence, demand that our faith be sated!
Turn away from those that seek to rot you.
Turn away
"Hello?"
"HELLO? HELLO? OH, THANK GOD, I REACHED SOMEONE!"
"Sir, you're going to have to slow down. What's the problem?"
"Hello?"
"OKAY, YES, I'M RUNNING TOWARDS THE OLD GREEN BARN, I'M ABOUT TWO MILES AWAY."
"Sir, you need to explain what's going on."
"OKAY I WAS JOGGING DOWN THE STREET ON MY NORMAL RUN WHEN I SAW A BRIGHT LIGHT IN THE SKY AND … WHAT THE--?"
"Is everything all right?"
"I SAW LIGHTS AND THEN SOMETHING HAPPENED, THE TREES AND THE ROAD DISAPPEARED AND I WAS WITH PEOPLE IN WHITE CLOTHES, ONLY THEY WEREN'T PEOPLE! YOU GOTTA HELP ME! PLEASE, SEND SOMEONE TO THE"
"Sir! Please calm down! Someone will be with you shor
Voices rejoice while cherubim build
Emotional/physical beauty instilled
The fuel to feed the fire fulfilled
Destiny's hand grips the holiest guild
Pure peerless angels had no strength to fly
Birthright of mortals refused to comply
Engines of nightmares wrought iron awry
Its witnesses purged the holiest guild
Mountains of fire that Eden forbade
Draw closer to throw the immortal grenade
Turning internal the struggle replayed
Thus sacrilege marred the holiest guild
Impacted chaos ignites ceaselessly
Withers the household of false piety
Disaster resplendent in calamity
Heaven's might crushing the holiest guild
Fallen white spires
sand and sea, two different sides
two different sides to you and me
you are the shore, drowned by the tides
of oceans that I am to be
what we once had, a rarity
into the sun that slightly steals
the water of its clarity
to never know what it reveals
so we walk and watch as we
draw plainly from what was to come
each blinded by his vanity
submits to its incessant drum
then incomplete in our own ways
we stray as we keep closed our eyes
to stride the path of banished rays
those tarnished runes of our demise
Inhibition As Chemical Process by errantmystic, literature
Literature
Inhibition As Chemical Process
Amazing, that these molecules,
nimble as the calloused fingers
which twitch with the scent of you,
can break down the will caging my wants.
Then you are slowly gorgeous,
almost loveable, woman enough
to brand my dilated retina,
shred my feigned restraint.
My nose slides over slick skin,
carving shudders from weakness,
hunting your flesh in service
to this mercenary orgasm.
One day, erectus stretched and evolved
so that, on exposure to morning,
novice transmitters streamed forth,
unsure but willing, to induce remorse.
.
Bitch
iris - swelling
countenance - counterfeit
indents either end curve upwards
only slightly, and then
a sigh;
'fancy seeing…' et cetera
reciting plasticine limericks
parched lips to each cheek
celebrate departure
turning away, they reminisce;
flickering projector
reels images of their
loathing.
.
The Longest Shower by silenceinnumbers, literature
Literature
The Longest Shower
The water was hot.
God, it was hot. Probably the hottest water I'd ever felt. I wasn't gonna say jack shit about it though. I wasn't gonna move out of it neither. As far as showers go this was my first real one in two weeks that felt more like 2 eons.
One boy. One bar of soap. Hot water.
No guards. No fights. I was happy that the only blood running down the drain was old. From ancient souvenirs of the 39 days prior. 1 day passed out in an empty lot at the intersection Broome and Hester with a 6-inch knife through my thigh. 1 day in the hospital, and 37 days in the hands of people deemed caretakers. Minus the care, earned me 4 minor stab wo
Streetlit Moonlight
I can barely see my pensive breath
Which shines, and fades away.
Oh, the way you wear upon
My mind, each blinding day!
Beams reflecting, weaving out
A cloth, inside.
Fabric casting shadows on
My thoughts, which hide:
Shyly like the humble boy
Who hears, desk in the back.
Answers dance around him yet
He fears, and his voice cracks.
How I want to cloak myself
With thread, the spool beneath!
I'll cover you each night beside
Your bed, in moonlight's reach!
The moon shone in my darkness like
A soul, a cratered ball.
Ribbons flowing through the shrouded
Folds, touching them all.
Now inside-out, my cloak a
In toil, hands wrapped tight around the quill
Wades poetry, surrounded by the fray,
To crush the morn with heavy handed chill.
Adorned words, jewel dripped, heard with great dismay
Clutch at emotion, thirsting now to slay
With punctuation, meter terse and ripped.
Yet something wrong and strange causes delay;
A song, a thought made flesh from fresh drawn script.
Its coil of unkempt flight and fancy still
Weaves sound, unfounded, brazen, wild and fey.
A rush of scorn is left unvoiced until
Adorned words, jewel dripped, heard with great dismay,
Such notions muddles, burries with a stray
And complex wording, verses made of clipped,
A Tribute to Jenny Ex by ubetyourboots, literature
Literature
A Tribute to Jenny Ex
Sharpie marker ticket on my hand--
I'm reminded of you tonight
in the glow of this gasoline bonfire
unchallenged by the midnight downpour;
rust belt rain joins your forgotten name
under my tongue.
The keg fills my red-or-blue-only cup
and my lips hide in the hops
from any recycled degenerate promises
that weren't unlike you.
I decide to let the massage of your memory
drive my curled toes into the mud
while I moisten the dirt inside
with this honeyless mead
why?
Because Scott Weiland failed me again.
To forget how warm my hands always are.
To remember when
your namesake wasn't an excuse.
And these technicolor Jell-O shots
g
So it\'s not the end of the world,
And it never was.
I know you love me too,
And I know you mean it.
I won\'t question it like I did before,
I keep replaying parts from the night before,
And like before, I found myself finding myself.
Slowly, I casted away my terms and conditions,
And, it\'s better this way.
I won\'t hesitate, to take your hand,
And I know that you won\'t pull it away from me,
I am sure of that,
At least for now.
So with my eyes open,
And you keep yours closed,
At least while we kiss.
Even though, I love staring into your eyes dreamily,
But the hunger in my eyes,
Has not yet developed into a greed,
I don\'t
Long or not so long
after the fall, the irony cuts deeply
and I watch, trapped behind glass,
watch wounds that need sutures
and wish I could stitch them
with thread made of sinew and a needle of bone.
Instead my fingers are caught by keys, my bones
not so useful as a needle now, only
fumbling, striking the syllables, wishing I could translate
emotion into language with any precision.
How do I say that
I wish I could bleed for you?
You chose, a choice not entire but a choice,
and lost that in the instant.
Of all the wounds you bear, that is the worst.
You lived in the wind's arms and the water's,
through some kindness perhaps
In fetal torpor I lie awake as
Sterile fluorescence flickers underneath my door.
Imagining climes were warmer and problems
Few and far between, the lush static of
Waves crashing on the California shore.
Back to reality.
Every new day a red X.
Every new hour an experience lost.
Happenstance and random occurrences
Are clutched at with zeal.
A finite number of dawns and sunsets.
No more next times.
Returning to the house
Simultaneously comforting and cold.
My children playing in the rooms
Where I used to hold tight a shaking brother
As his tears seared the memory in my brain.
A beautiful scar.
Faces fade, and in years hence
Wh
It's been a while, I know. I have been pretty inactive on multiple fronts (both travail (https://www.deviantart.com/travail) and prevail (https://www.deviantart.com/prevail) have been pretty quiet), but that is because I am literally swamped senseless with work.
I guess I should consider myself lucky: I have a job now, and working my butt off trying to keep all sides of my life happy and content. Insofar as I don't have a meltdown or accidentally kill myself, I daresay things are going well.
That being said, sometimes neglect is inevitable, and unfortunately, the dA community, and my friends here ... you are the recipient. A thousand apologies. I will do my best.
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Thought I'd drop by, see if you had anything new to share with us. Apparently not. I'll add you to the watch list in case you stumble upon the sight with intent of expressing yourself.